A Houdini Complex

Dear Internet,
I have been unbelievably busy. I have moved out of the dormitories from the University and now live in a small apartment where I still do not have my own mattress to call my own. But on top of moving out, moving things from place to place, I had to go to band camp for marching band. I am part of this huge organization that makes me dedicate a large chunk of time where I am in the sun, soaking rays for at least six hours a day, burning a lot in the process. I also had so much fun. I have to remember that taking the time to be outside for a large amount of time with people who enjoy the same thing as me. That is incredibly important because it may never happen again. I have to integrate these experiences with me as long as I can.

Because I have no internet right now, I have not had the time to record everything that has happened to me. First, I went to move fifteen minutes away from my school and I commute to classes everyday. I also have to use a lot of resources at school. I am insanely busy because of marching band and keeping up with everybody in my life. It's funny, now that I think of it, I actually have a life now. All of the goals I have been dedicating my time seem so insignificant because I have control of it and now I want it to keep moving forward.

Anyways, I have no internet so I am having a hard time to update this blog. It will be more difficult to update with school but I am thinking ahead that because I am taking on school and a job. I just have to keep believing I still have the power to keep it together. I have to.

But I will have internet soon so I will not have to go to a Barnes & Nobles every time I need internet to see what is happening on the outside world. I do believe things will get easier once I have access in my apartment with my awesome roommate.

I just want to reflect that things have changed so much after moving and this summer has improved everything around me. My college experience has grown exponentially. I have become better at talking to new people because I am absurdly shy around everyone. I am proud to say I am as I am. I cannot believe things have just been spinning around me, going faster and faster as I try to scourge a few hours of sleep to look forward to the next day.

I am very happy. I need to be able to see that I am getting to the one small goal I whisper to myself.

I am happy.